Story Time...

 Disclaimer: Any of the "frogs" in my life are not bad people, and I am not insulting them in the story, it is more of a play on words and simplifying things. Even though things didn't work out with some of my more serious relationships, I know it was for a reason, and I still love and respect them in my own way. Y'all helped shape who I am, and I know that at least one of you is a dear and treasured friend.....now, on to the silly and hopefully cute "story". Enjoy ladies!


Once upon a time, in the land of Typical, there was this princess. Except, this princess didn't know she was a princess, not in her heart of hearts. Nonetheless, this princess spent many years, from middle school to junior year of college, searching for her prince. She found a few frogs that were very convincing, one in high school and one in college that were especially convincing. She gave years of her life to both of the frogs, and even more years to several more. She also gave treasures that she should have kept for herself and a real prince. After years of being mislead, not always by the frogs, but also by her own false desires and ideas, she finally got tired. She didn't want any more frogs, and she wanted a REAL prince. The princess moved to a new kingdom and saw several "princes" there. But then, the princess ran into a new problem...these new "princes" did not see her! At all! In fact, they decided that they wanted other princesses instead of her. This made the princess very sad, and very angry for a short time. She felt ugly, not special enough, like there would always be a prettier princess with prettier dresses and more charms to lure the princes. But, then one day, when the princess was feeling extremely low, she heard a message, several messages, several days in a row, by several wise and beautiful people. And then, she found her prince. Her prince who had been there all along loving her, and seeing just how beautiful and wonderful she was. This prince's father, every one's king, had given the princess all of her gifts, beauty, and her treasured heart. So, her prince knew and loved her all the way through. From that day forward, when the princess started to think that no one would love her, or find her beautiful, or see the gifts she had to offer, she would look toward her prince, and her heart would glow with love. From that day forward, she lived happily ever after. THE END <3



Lol so random I know, it just popped into my head and I wrote it down. It is a cute way of explaining where I am at and have been in the past and recently, without all of the details. Lol hope it makes someone laugh or maybe inspires?

LoveJoyPeace

So, It has been day two since I started really trying to be content with life, my circumstances, and everything that goes on around me. It. Feels. AMAZING. I have definitely had some annoyances the last couple of days, and back track a week before they would have probably ruined my day and put me in a mood for a few hours at least. But, this week, with my new attitude, things are going way smoother. It is like a big cloud is lifting.

Here is a run down of my day that would have previously put me in a fog and a lousy mood for possibly half of the week. (Sad and ridiculous I know!)  But here is how my day went: I had a hard time waking up at 6 a.m., as most people would...but instead of cursing the clock and being pissed about having to get up before noon, I changed my outlook and went on my way. While I was teaching my stomach started hurting and usually this would have made me upset and I would have started counting down the hours until I could get home. Instead, I just ignored it to my best ability, and pretty soon I forgot about it. I also ended up having a very rambunctious group of kiddos assigned to me for the rest of the year in my field experience, and although this might not have been a huge issue even when I had my old attitude, it still would have been frustrating. But, even though the kids tested me, I couldn't help but feel joy about the fact that they were so eager to learn and that I have a challenge to tackle for the rest of the semester. After getting home from the elementary school I discovered that my Internet was shut off, and that my package I had been waiting on was still in transit. Now these two things got me grumpy for a while, unfortunately. But, I still managed to get my attitude in check and get over these really insignificant things. Was my day the worst day? No, but it was not "perfect" either. But, thanks to my new attitude I still chalked it up to a good day and I won't be carrying negative feelings over insignificant things into tomorrow. It may sound silly, but I have been really bad about that lately. My efforts to change my attitude don't always keep me in the perfect state of mind, but they do show me that a smiling soul makes a difference, and that the things that do bother me are pretty laughable. I love this change!!!

Now, my description of my day seems pretty average and insignificant I'm sure. If you actually followed the whole day I commend you dear reader! The day itself is not what is significant though, it is how I feel after the day that is the most important thing of this post. Over the past few weeks, maybe even month, I have felt run down, tired, lonely, and even sad at the end of each day. I have felt frustrated that all of these "bad" things happened, or sad that I was still not getting what I thought I wanted from life. Bottom line, I felt empty. And today would have made me feel pretty low if I was still in that place.

The beautiful thing  about today, is that I feel full, complete, joyful, loved, and excited about life, even when nothing exceptionally awesome happened. Almost the opposite if anything. And this new feeling of peace and joy shows me what a HUGE contrast it is between now and the previous weeks. And all of these changes that are starting to happen are all because of one thing: God. God, his love, his beauty, and his grace. It is a fantastic experience and the best part is, it is only the beginning. I may fail, and will still have my Negative-Nancy day, but, my over all attitude and outlook is way better and my bond with my God is getting way stronger. My heart, attitude, and desires are changing. It is awesome!!!

Bottom Line: God is beautiful <3...haha shortest "bottom line" from me ever! Thanks for reading, have a blessed week!


Here are some songs that are really inspring me, and just really relate to what I'm feeling, enjoy!

      

               

  

  

    

Content in Christ

So, today I went to "Mug and Muffin" (A bible study/fellowship type thing with some lovely ladies from CRU). And, although I expected it to be a nice experience, I did not expect it to be as enriching and perfect for my current state of mind as it was. Needless to say, God wanted me to be there and he got a very good message that he has been trying to get to me for a little while now. It is truly amazing how much God will tell us, if we just focus on him and pay attention. I totally felt him today and it was awesome :).

So, to get to the main point of this post, the things that I got from today are as follows:

I realized today that even though I had previously thought that I was content, and focusing on my relationship with God and God only, I have not been. I do love God more than I ever have before, and I have made sooooo much progress spiritually in the last 7 months or so. But lately, I have been so worried about when and if I will ever meet a Godly man who will fall in love with me one day, that I lost sight of the goal of pursuing God. I have not wanted a relationship in order to receive attention and affirmation, I have wanted one in order to grow closer to Christ along side someone. But today, I realized that I have a room full of wonderful women that I can grow with. None of them will ever distract me from my journey, and they will all know to some degree what I am going through and vice versa. I have a whole community of Christians to talk about God with, and to grow more in love with him. I am realizing now that being single, and pursuing him with my friends is a much better use of my time than anything else I could be doing. Lesson learned and dually noted God :).

There is a second thing that I learned and loved hearing about today, and that was training myself to be content. This is also something I have been struggling with lately. I get really caught up in the fact that certain people are getting the things that I want. Like attention, or material things, etc. etc. After today I realized that the things that cause me frustration and worry are all earthly. Every time I feel down about myself or my situation, it is because I am calculating and taking note of the earthly desires that are not being met. I realize that that is such a silly thing to spend my time doing! I have gifts, and blessings that make my life beyond amazing. Are my gifts and blessing the same as my peers? No. Is that ok? Absolutely! I really need to keep working on remembering that all of my  earthly desires and frustrations are meaningless and silly in the long run. I need to count the haves, and not the have nots. I have an amazing, almighty, and powerful God. I have loving, amazing friends. I have wonderful and supportive parents. (All of those boil down to healthy and blessed relationships). I have all of my basic needs met, and then some. I have two "fur-babies" that I love dearly and they bring me joy every day. I have a passion and drive to serve the lord and a gift with children which will help me to change lives and do his will. I have so many reasons to smile each day! The most important thing is that I have God, and I do not need anything else. I don't need more money, more friend, and certainly not a relationship. Not now. This is the perfect time in my life for me to focus on God, and to pursue him. I have so many tools to aid in that pursuit at this point, and I have so much time to do so. I have a group of people to learn and grow with. What could possibly be missing to make me have a huge desire for a relationship with a man when I am not even as close as I need to be with my first love? I am striving to be content with everything I am given from this point on. I already feel way better because of it!

....I have no idea what my future holds. And I don't need to know. I know I trust God, and that he will provide and deliver. His plans for me are way better than any plans I could come up with myself, and I have no intention of taking the reigns and doing my own thing due to impatience. How could I not be in love with someone who provides for me, loves me unconditionally, teaches me something new every day, gives me gifts in many different forms, and completes me? How could I be dissatisfied with him and crave more? I don't know, and I won't any more. I'm excited! Things are only going to get better from here! I love my new perspective, and I love my life with Christ. God has so many amazing things planned for me, I have no clue what they are, but I can just feel the joy beauty of my future. It is overwhelming in a good way! So excited, and so loved <3...so in love <3!

Engagements/Whose Time Frame Are We Running On?

So, I have noticed that a loooot of people in my age range seem to be getting engaged and finding their soulmates. And in my insecure and lonely moments, it gets to me. It makes me scared and worried that I have not even met the kid yet (that I know of). And then it makes me start to think that maybe a good, kind, awesome Christian man will NEVER notice me......and after my fairly typical spiral of nonsense that most women my age and in and position go through, I let logic back in my head. Then, I realize that I am basing my worries and fears on a time frame that I have made for myself. Yes, many people get engaged around 21-25 years old, and many people meet their soulmate in college. But do all of them? NO. And just because my future hubby is not showing up after a bunch of other people are starting their lives together officialy, does not mean he never will. I feel like so many of us ladies worry about this anyway. I am actively trying to stop this trend though! I am so glad for the awesome couples getting engaged, and I can tell with so many of them that God put them together.  But instead of getting sad and "lonely" because of the frequency of these couples, I am going to let them inspire me instead! Instead of seeing something beautiful and thinking, "darn, I wish I could have that!", I am going to start thinking, "Yes! I will have that one day!". And until "one day" comes, I will focus on important things such as my journey and ROMANCE with GOD, school, family, my pets, volunteering, being the hands and feet of Christ, etc. etc. And somehwhere during all of that someone might be able to sneak in and pursue my heart. No more getting discouraged that I am not being pursued by Christian men, it will happen soon enough, maybe just not now. The people I wish to pursue me now might not, they probably won't, but it is nothing to be taken personally. It is just that they are made for someone else and someone else is waiting for me. Besides, God is ALWAYS pursuing my heart. And although I have been working hard to give it to him fully, I need to give it to him even more! Something I have been willing to do since last semester, and a desire that keeps growing the more I involve myself in CRU and the more I serve him. The ultimate romance is something that we all arleady have, the romance with God. Loving someone who loves God is ideal, and the three of you are in a relationship together, but the primary one is already available. The relationship with God is the most important, and is there as soon as you choose to accept it. Any other one only joins and should support the first one. So...in conclusion, I am focusing on my most important relationship first. And taking joy in it!