LoveJoyPeace

So, It has been day two since I started really trying to be content with life, my circumstances, and everything that goes on around me. It. Feels. AMAZING. I have definitely had some annoyances the last couple of days, and back track a week before they would have probably ruined my day and put me in a mood for a few hours at least. But, this week, with my new attitude, things are going way smoother. It is like a big cloud is lifting.

Here is a run down of my day that would have previously put me in a fog and a lousy mood for possibly half of the week. (Sad and ridiculous I know!)  But here is how my day went: I had a hard time waking up at 6 a.m., as most people would...but instead of cursing the clock and being pissed about having to get up before noon, I changed my outlook and went on my way. While I was teaching my stomach started hurting and usually this would have made me upset and I would have started counting down the hours until I could get home. Instead, I just ignored it to my best ability, and pretty soon I forgot about it. I also ended up having a very rambunctious group of kiddos assigned to me for the rest of the year in my field experience, and although this might not have been a huge issue even when I had my old attitude, it still would have been frustrating. But, even though the kids tested me, I couldn't help but feel joy about the fact that they were so eager to learn and that I have a challenge to tackle for the rest of the semester. After getting home from the elementary school I discovered that my Internet was shut off, and that my package I had been waiting on was still in transit. Now these two things got me grumpy for a while, unfortunately. But, I still managed to get my attitude in check and get over these really insignificant things. Was my day the worst day? No, but it was not "perfect" either. But, thanks to my new attitude I still chalked it up to a good day and I won't be carrying negative feelings over insignificant things into tomorrow. It may sound silly, but I have been really bad about that lately. My efforts to change my attitude don't always keep me in the perfect state of mind, but they do show me that a smiling soul makes a difference, and that the things that do bother me are pretty laughable. I love this change!!!

Now, my description of my day seems pretty average and insignificant I'm sure. If you actually followed the whole day I commend you dear reader! The day itself is not what is significant though, it is how I feel after the day that is the most important thing of this post. Over the past few weeks, maybe even month, I have felt run down, tired, lonely, and even sad at the end of each day. I have felt frustrated that all of these "bad" things happened, or sad that I was still not getting what I thought I wanted from life. Bottom line, I felt empty. And today would have made me feel pretty low if I was still in that place.

The beautiful thing  about today, is that I feel full, complete, joyful, loved, and excited about life, even when nothing exceptionally awesome happened. Almost the opposite if anything. And this new feeling of peace and joy shows me what a HUGE contrast it is between now and the previous weeks. And all of these changes that are starting to happen are all because of one thing: God. God, his love, his beauty, and his grace. It is a fantastic experience and the best part is, it is only the beginning. I may fail, and will still have my Negative-Nancy day, but, my over all attitude and outlook is way better and my bond with my God is getting way stronger. My heart, attitude, and desires are changing. It is awesome!!!

Bottom Line: God is beautiful <3...haha shortest "bottom line" from me ever! Thanks for reading, have a blessed week!


Here are some songs that are really inspring me, and just really relate to what I'm feeling, enjoy!